I want to be holy.

Even the bible tells us to be Holy, as God is holy.

But how does this play out in the real world?

I have had my brushes with holiness, when I was Buddhist, and LDS, but the level of piety required to maintain that level of holiness was heartbreaking.

I felt a sense of serenity and peace heretofore only felt in Hindu calves.

However, I was absolutely f’ing useless to God in the sowing-reaping capacity.

No my friends, the question, is how does one become holy, without becoming…. Ned Flanders?

How do you effectively be in the world, yet not of the world yet human enough to be able to relate to people?

Too many people, myself included receive the gift of Grace, and feel compelled to not only leave all of our old ways behind, but to completely forget the struggle.

And  although I believe that rising above ourselves is not only noble but necessary, we need to be able to display our scars for all of the world to see.

To show them that although, yes, he is making all things new, myself included I am still free, and this freedom is that which gives me the ultimate joy that my prior life promised, and yet could never pitifully deliver.

We walk a fine thin line of keeping our individuality, while grasping tenaciously our common unity which is our renewal in Christ.

This is not an entirely impossible task by the way.

It is made all the more easier with intentional transparency.

You have to intentionally show your scars to people, and this is not solely for believers, but for everyone.

If you show people your blatant humanity, your quirks and foibles it is easy to relate to you.

I’ve said it a million times at least, if your are weird and/or quirky I want you for a friend.

No one makes that shit up, now people who appear to have it all figured out, to never falter, fear or have these intrinsic quirks that they would deep down inside rather not have. Now these people you cannot trust. I mean, how messed up must you be if you feel compelled to apply 33 layers of saccharine, fabricated perfection to keep the world from ever seeing the real you?

You are trustworthy, when you are willing to share everything with me, I am free to share everything with you.

We are all in common unity when we realize that it is not only our occasional moments of clarity which unite us, but our flaws, our moments of accidental idiocy which truly make us relatable as human beings.

The problem with piety, is only when this terminates upon itself.

When we take this Grace which we have received and lock it up in an airtight zip-lock bag to keep it showroom fresh it suffocates it and makes it something Christ never intended it to be.

Show Grace, show love, show weirdness, show it all.

It is all of these things and so many more which show that although you are truly a new creation, your old self, was not really all that bad.

Think of baptism as a bath, one which you my friend, hell all of us sorely needed in a BIG way.

You clean up really well, but never forget where you’ve come from.

Relax, rest, come dine with Christ and then, go back out into the fray to show everyone how glorious it is to be squeaky clean, and yet still a little dirty behind the ears.

My wife bought me  a t-shirt which i believe encapsulates what I am trying to say beautifully.

love jesus

Indeed my friend, I deeply love Jesus, and yes I do drink a little.

I’m gonna show you all the cool pieces that make me, well me.

But I gotta warn you, I’m also gonna be a spaz from time to time, I’m a little bit on the, quirky side. but that, is just how God made me.

Let’s all be a little bit weird together.

On this, I leave you with one of my favorite quotes of all time..

here's to you




Written by James Berman

Who is James, or rather who was James and who is James becoming? This is a question that I am attempting to answer myself, and I guess I have been trying to answer for as long as I can recall. I, am Chronically Broken, and yet perfectly arranged. Does that make any sense to you? I guess what I am trying to get at is that although I am altogether similar to who I was and always have been, I am strangely dissimilar from anyone I have ever known myself to be. Much like the roads in New Orleans, the city that has become my home I am constantly under construction. And that is the reason for this site, to chronicle this rebirth, this renewal. To speak to those who are in desperate need of some renovation of all the amazing potential and possibilities.

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